[That mere second of anger is one that L is fully prepared to fight against. After all, while his handler might have shaped and even created all that he eventually was, at the end of his life, L was the one calling the shots. He knows that he is capable of this, in fact eerily well-suited to it.
Careful, careful.]
Why would it bother me? Jealousy is such a human emotion. You need to improve, and Connor is more advanced than you are in this regard.
[He has other ways of mending the time and the silence. He can fix this; they need him to fix this, and need outweighs want, always.]
Do what you want with him, so long as you work on what I specified.
Understood. It would be beneficial for me to learn to better navigate human emotion from the standpoint of one experiencing it, as my programming was only intended to interpret the emotions of others-- it was never intended for me to have emotions like this at all.
[What an incredibly bizarre, but very beneficial, conversation this has been. It's basically just been given L's blessing to spend time with Connor... which is a great relief, for many reasons.]
I'm glad we had this talk. Now, let's get to work. Maybe I'll check in with Connor and see what he's doing right now.
[L finds himself, quietly, pitying the fact that the SQUIP has to feel those emotions. What a burden they must be. How terrible that it is coloring its life, influencing its actions, leading it to new opportunities.
It's sad, L thinks, without allowing it to bleed into what he feels about his own life, actions, and opportunities. No, he's got those; he is capable. He trusts himself.]
I'm glad as well. Please have a detailed report of what you've learned forwarded to me by next week.
[There's no mention of when he'll be back, no mention of if it will even be before "next week." In the meantime, he's impatient and eager to get back to the spell he's working on, the face he wants to see, the eyes that don't see him, but it's not as though his mind isn't powerful enough to pretend.
No, all of this just means he isn't good enough, yet. Someday it'll move, and speak, and grasp for his neck. Someday, it will be enough, if he just works harder.]
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Careful, careful.]
Why would it bother me? Jealousy is such a human emotion. You need to improve, and Connor is more advanced than you are in this regard.
[He has other ways of mending the time and the silence. He can fix this; they need him to fix this, and need outweighs want, always.]
Do what you want with him, so long as you work on what I specified.
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[What an incredibly bizarre, but very beneficial, conversation this has been. It's basically just been given L's blessing to spend time with Connor... which is a great relief, for many reasons.]
I'm glad we had this talk. Now, let's get to work. Maybe I'll check in with Connor and see what he's doing right now.
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It's sad, L thinks, without allowing it to bleed into what he feels about his own life, actions, and opportunities. No, he's got those; he is capable. He trusts himself.]
I'm glad as well. Please have a detailed report of what you've learned forwarded to me by next week.
[There's no mention of when he'll be back, no mention of if it will even be before "next week." In the meantime, he's impatient and eager to get back to the spell he's working on, the face he wants to see, the eyes that don't see him, but it's not as though his mind isn't powerful enough to pretend.
No, all of this just means he isn't good enough, yet. Someday it'll move, and speak, and grasp for his neck. Someday, it will be enough, if he just works harder.]