[For all Myr sometimes lacks confidence in himself--in his capacity to achieve all he's set out to do, in his worth and goodness to those he loves--he has yet to be shaken in his conviction that he can hew to the course the Maker's words had set him. That he can maintain his hope and moral center in the face of the corroding effect of the world; that there is nothing anyone could do to him to change that. Though L may fear to darken and stain him, Myr is not--is never--afraid himself to walk into that darkness for his friend's sake.
Perhaps his is the confidence of the man who has not considered the worst of all possible futures, those that contain inevitable failure and ruin. Or perhaps it's simple faith in what he knows of L, at all odds from what he's been told; faith that whatever had warped and distorted his Bonded could in the end be requited, the damage put right, through unstinting love and earnest effort.
It may want discussion, in time. It is not an unreasonable concern, given the example to-hand of someone who'd sought to emulate L--
I want to tell you something comforting... reassuring. The words aren't enough to make Myr frown, but the impressions he garners through the Bond are. As clearly as he can feel L's tangled emotions concerning Mello--those same emotions that have enough of pity, of concern, to stay Myr's hand--he cannot but view these flashes of the younger man's behavior with dismay and disgust. No clearer evidence that L was an idol and an object, not someone but something expected to comply with the idolater's rules.
Yet he is too accustomed heeding L's analysis of a situation to discard it out of hand, even if a very large part of him wishes to say--simply and flatly--then let him break. It is a cruelty Myr can stomach...but they are not speaking simply of hurt feelings, with Mello. (Another form of coercion. More fuel for the fury.)]
I don't believe you a coward, amatus. [Never that.] But you've taken on more responsibility for him than is just to either of you. He isn't well-served by being indulged in this, and you--
[It makes his throat close to think of L enduring another round of Mello's attentions, out of fear of what would happen otherwise.] --This isn't part of your duty toward him.
Nor do you need bear it all alone. [We are in this together.]
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Perhaps his is the confidence of the man who has not considered the worst of all possible futures, those that contain inevitable failure and ruin. Or perhaps it's simple faith in what he knows of L, at all odds from what he's been told; faith that whatever had warped and distorted his Bonded could in the end be requited, the damage put right, through unstinting love and earnest effort.
It may want discussion, in time. It is not an unreasonable concern, given the example to-hand of someone who'd sought to emulate L--
I want to tell you something comforting... reassuring. The words aren't enough to make Myr frown, but the impressions he garners through the Bond are. As clearly as he can feel L's tangled emotions concerning Mello--those same emotions that have enough of pity, of concern, to stay Myr's hand--he cannot but view these flashes of the younger man's behavior with dismay and disgust. No clearer evidence that L was an idol and an object, not someone but something expected to comply with the idolater's rules.
Yet he is too accustomed heeding L's analysis of a situation to discard it out of hand, even if a very large part of him wishes to say--simply and flatly--then let him break. It is a cruelty Myr can stomach...but they are not speaking simply of hurt feelings, with Mello. (Another form of coercion. More fuel for the fury.)]
I don't believe you a coward, amatus. [Never that.] But you've taken on more responsibility for him than is just to either of you. He isn't well-served by being indulged in this, and you--
[It makes his throat close to think of L enduring another round of Mello's attentions, out of fear of what would happen otherwise.] --This isn't part of your duty toward him.
Nor do you need bear it all alone. [We are in this together.]