[It feels that tension rising, that desperation to escape; it sighs. L has always fared best with direct, verbal guidance.]

L... you and I have shared a Bond for several months now. And, at first, it was for the sake of convenience-- as is our entire relationship. It's a display that we put on, something easy to tell others to prevent them from asking questions.

[... it closes its eyes for a beat, before meeting L's gaze, an unnatural intensity in its own, softened by the undercurrent of their Bond, warmth. Affection.]

I think it should be... more than that now.

[It wants it to be. But it shouldn't want, so it keeps that part silent.]